I don’t know how these empty years have passed, in evanescence.
I want to swim the deep waters of a shady past
Of my rainy day caresses with you.
Here I spread out my arms and light the flame
Look back at quick stings, ruckus and impending doom,
Screams and murmurs alive in a hazy sleep.
Fighting away the memories and stings to free myself,
I am bound up tight in ropes– surrendered to your flames.
One last time, I want to reach out to the trembling and beauty
Of long nights and the smell of youthful, candid smiles
Lighting up the smothering traffic,
Old stairs, shady buildings in twilight haze.
Smiles that ran into the tramways, the busy subways
Of uncertain miles, bring me again, to nothingness
As I allow open wounds and scars of a castaway life
Whip me with a splash of colors.
My eyes walk across the Atlantic Ocean
As I sit at the edge of a slumber, whimpering and pining
Silly old tears of a forlorn city…..
You knock me down each time with your quandaries.
You knock me down each time with sins and sighs
Crush my breath–as if the sky is torn off my life.
I keep coming to you barefoot, scattered in ashes and dust
Walk back to you over rocks and thorns,
Stark dead and grinning, every time you grind the pieces in me–
Together and apart, you watch me blown to death.
You cherish me, limp and crazy
The constant cold departures, the sinking away”
While you know I would come back again to your dingy streets
And undo’ ME’.
I am–bits, pieces and splinters of you
The frozen memories, the buried yesteryear sins.
The betrayals, the thwarted passion, the wilderness that bleed
Summer’s scarlet tears in your naked, primal chest
Bleed and ache, whisper and scream, within ME.